Happy bday Son🎉

That fateful unassuming day,when your arrival was announced,we as parents hadnt the slightest of ideas,what parenthood meant.What You would mean to us!
        We were happy ofcourse,but I was afraid-apprehensive-weary.The social world around is so good at sermonising!But to be a hands down mom,only a mom knows what that means.
         And then that day arrived when I heard you first cry.That winter eve,when I fought with a plethora of emotions,trying to figure out exactly what I felt for you!The first week went away getting to know eachother,you would keep awake the whole night n sleep the day through(which you maintain till this very day!!!)Back home,your dad spent sleepless nights keeping vigil-playing with you,when I caught up on some sleep.You were the cutest smilling baby I ever knew,inquisitive,bright eyed and always ready with a question on your lips.You were the naughtiest too!!!
        Today as I look back on those days when I  too grew up as a mother with you,I cant help but feel a tinge of nostalgia,wish I could have my baby back.But time dsnt stop n here we are celebrating your 23rd bday.An adult man,who will soon move out of our home,to build his own world,find his own footing,but never far from our heart.Son you are blessed with the choicest blessings n our prayers shall always protect you.
       May always smile through your journey,remember,He who giveth more-begets most.Keep helping,keep working and never forget to be thankful to the almighty-God bless you my love-Happy Bday Debrup🎉🎂🎉

Agonies&Ecstacies

The absence of light,
Lies heavy on my eyes...
As darkness creeps,
Into the crevices of my existence,
I listen to the footfalls,
Of the friendly pall-bearers!

     Travelling along the oft-sinned paths,
     My beloved a half-blood God!
     The soul searches for a melodious song,
     Misty-eyed I bathe in your halloed light!

Awakening in me,
A long lost love,
Yet,only to light its pyre.
The desire to dance to unknown beats,
To rest beside my tired being.

          Bowed down by the agony and the guilt,
          Numbed by the fire within,
          The wait for a peacefull retreat,
          May my muse in me live!

Closed verses in open relationships......

These days I often find, Profiles with taglines....
--"in open relationship",they say!
I cant stop wondering, how can a relation be open or shut otherwise?
As far as i have known,relationships function on their own free will.
Limits are not stretchable.Yet parameters may be redefined.
Expectations and obligations,walk beside,
Love and hatred,never precise!
Situations demand to act likewise!
If there is love,then how, can a relation,
be open to further advances undefined?
Love is antiquity now,relationships open!
Hearts closed,dedication passe'.
Commitments rare,promises a mockery!

Megher opare

Khone khone niruddesher thikanay,
Mon take uriye diye.............
Nil akasher hath-chhani te,
Chokh buje dub di...................

Sagorer amontron firiye,
Tushar-meru te khunji sukti,
Hariye jawa ek ajana pothe,
Kuriye pai mukti.

Sundar-Gadha!

Songsar korte parena guchiye,
Na sajte-sajate!
Rannaghore mon tekena tar,
Melate parena mashkabarir hiseb!

Kobitar pathay mon porey thake,
Ganer kthaye vase je,
loke bole nari jonmo britha!
Emoni din kate se.

Chele dake ,ma khete dao,
Kintu kobitar chhondo milchena je?
Rannaghore vaat futche,
Ganer sur bandhche se!

Katche din gotanugotik,
Jak kete tobe,khoti ki?
Miliye chhondo,miliye sur,
eivabei cholbe se..............

KOBITA!

kobita?tumi likhte bolo,
likhte bose,kothar khela,kheyal hoy,pata khola.
Pora boi r sarir pase,tomar sei boi rakha.
lal molate mora,kichu ta ekhono baki pora!

Jiboner khatay anki-buki kata,abujh hater seo bujhi kobita!
valo laga,valobasa,sab asomapto,adhyay gulo, eke-eke muche fela.
Einaki jibon,emon vabei maniye neya,jemonta chao,temon korei pawa.
tao kano moner kone roy jay kichu megher chonya?


Jotil eto vabna-chinta! lekha r amar hoyna sara.
kichu akhorer,kta sobde,bandhbo kmone sab adhora?
tale, chonde,sure,chunye,genthe rakha kichu moner kotha,
tomar r amar moner kti chup-kotha!

4U

I can die a thosand deaths,every day
For that face.
Keep my thirsty lips parched all day!
Just to see the happiness
In that smile.
For that face,i can bet my life
And all its moments awhile.

Sleep eludes me all night
I keep awake with drowsy eyes.
The silence simmers in summer nights.
Glows and burns my thirsty eyes.
An autumn shower,touches my soul
The cascading sounds of waterfalls
Dark clouds of uncertainty.
Spreads its wings on my entity
Silencing the singing heart.

I can survive for you
For that face
For thousand years.

KICHU KOTHA...............................

Kichu kotha elo melo,kichu sur,mone roy galo.
Kichu mukh na volai valo,hoyto tomake porabe mone amar o....
Sei sediner dekha,kichu bola,kichu sona,kichu chupkotha!
Kan pete sunechilam,buk vore rekhechilam ,
Tomar na bola sab rup kotha.

Tomar hater sei prothom sporose,mone hoyni tomake achena .
Tomar hate hath neya,rangiye diye galo abar ei ocheton mon amar.
Neshaye,urechi ami,amar nil akasher,buke,notun pakha mele.
Abak hoy dekhechi,takei,vebechi ki dussahos tar!

Majhe megher kalo keshe,eka atok ekta ghunri dekhechi ,
Chokhe porechilo tar nissongota,ekai,khunjechilo,nil akash,
Kata-chenra dana niye,urte pareni r !
Aj o pabe dekhte,tar chenra tukro,batasher kane bole jay,
Tar byarthotar golpo!

Amio sunechi,gunechii,rat jegechi,tomake niye vebechi.
Chander paser oi ekla tara take jolte nibhte dekhechi .
R ratrer govir andhokare,ekta sopno dekhechi .
Bondho hoy asa chokher du patay tare dhore rekhechi.

Nobin surjer notun aloy,take roj rangiyechi .
Hain amio rong mekhechi,dol khelechi.
Faguner sei astogami surjer aloy,agun dekhechi .
Vije jawa,vari mon diye tomake dure jete dekhechi......................

Tumi esei chole gele.........

Tumi esei chole gele,vorer sopno hoy
Adrisyo moner,adrishyo konay
Tumi chile,alekha kobita hoy
Sur miliye,tal gune,lekha puro hoyni je
Tar agei tumi dile,kalir doyat patay choriye.
Sada pata,sadai chilo,kano gele tumi rangiye amay?
Dakini tomake,chai o ni.
Sopno sotti hobe vabio ni!
Tobe kano ele tumi?kano eto jorajuri?
Khelay aj metecho tumi,hote paro tumi khelari!
Ami kintu mon diyechi,se khela tumi paroni.
Jit-har,mora-bancha,legei thakbe asa-jawa.
Hansita mukher dhore rekho,amake naiba mone porlo?
Ami achi,ami thakbo,lekho tumi kintu ami theke dekhabo!
Sopno venge moja pao?chokher jol e mon sukao?
Naiba amay dakle,naiba mone rakhle!
Tobu ami thakbo,dur theke dekhbo,
Valo achi,valo theko.bare barei bole jabo.

Naubo-aloke

Notun kore abar
Songhorshe jog dilam.
Notun jogge,notun houme,
Korbo atit swaha.

Naubo aloker ei naubo vor e
Ramdhonur rong diye
tomar anka chobite
vore debo ronger bahar.

Tomar sure sur miliye
Gaibo jiboner gan
notun sur r notun tal e
Sajbe notun asor abar......

Shishir!

Shiter vor e kal
Chokhe porlo hothat
Ek bindu shishir
ghaser sis e se nijeke diyechilo dhora.

Take dekhe holo mone,
Ashrukona,se kar chokher?
Atripto moner prokash?
sara rat jhore jawa borosoner
ghat-protighat!

Puber lal akashe,dhoreche sona rong
Hariye jabar somoy hoy elo tar.
Firey jabe se eibar.

Kono ek vore jodi abar
mone ase tomar
firey asbo ami, chokh vejate tomar!

bancte chai

Ami banchte cheyechilam
Tomar chokhe valobasa
Dekhte cheyechilam.

Jibone duhath bariye
Sudhui moron cheyechilam!

Tomar chokhe banchte cheyechilam.
Valolagar abeshe
Valobaste cheyechilam!

Sudhu tomar hoy
Thakte cheyechilam.....

@40!

Nearly forty and comfortably fat;
looking at the mirror,
I was satisfied!!!

Had nearly wrapped up the innings;
with a neat score.
just a few years more...
and I could settle down by the shore.

The boys would be set,
hoping for the best!
And then I could get some rest.
The years as it is,
had left behind scars
of long never ending gorges
and ravines,tearing a corpse apart!

Yet the rivers of life
never ceased to bathe her
keeping the fires burning
leaving her amazed forever!

silence.

Ever heard silence speak?
Ever heard it cry?
Ever seen it scream,like U n I?
I see then every day,speaking not a word,
I see it in the eyes of a maid,
who has to work inspite of a broken finger!
I see a silence scream,when an xasperated mother,
wants her son to eat!
I want to scream,when all i want to do is sit and cry.

musings.......

Dark days----

when the sky is dark and the wind howls past
when there arent any stars
to show us the pathleading to the father above
when the devils threaten in your sleep
do you wonder,were God ever alive!
behind the closed doors and windows
crying their hearts out
i see helpless souls in myriad colours of shame
waiting for absolution....

you- --

When the world seems unfair
wish u were near
to tell me that you cared
not so much in words if you may
just a loving smile will be ok
a touch on the shoulder,
a caring glance across
thats all i ask of you ,LIFEin this world.


failure- --

When life seems standstill do you have a feeling ?
to analyse the worth of your living???
as much as i hate to admit
yet thats what i feel ,these days
evermore... i know it hurts to admit,
but i have to say---
i have been a failure all my life indeed.


friend---

Dont get upset with life
theres more to it than just meets the eye!
open up your heart,lay out the parts
which ache much.dnt strip your soul
of secret sacred feelings of love!
pullout that which are stinging
dnt let anyone mar the beauty
of GODs divinity.


thoughts- --

In a few lines ,of a few words.
wayward dreams like streams
flow down tumbling, bubbling, delighting!
like drops of blood from my flesh
these thoughts of mine
like sapllings unnurtured!
will they survive ;the storm of life?


wilderness---

long stretch of wildernes, within me or about me?
a puzzle for me! not a soul can be seen
on an destitution like this!
frantically searching for an oasis!


She! ---

In a dark world she livesand in blank verses she sings
a melancholic song that sweeps all beautifull things away
She lives in her world alone
doing her sins atone!
crying to be blesssedwith new sings again...
a forlorn figure, withering away.
could Gods creation help such sway?
mercy!mercy!all do pray..


avisaar---

ratrer avisar
churi kora kichu upohar
mone pore sei chele belar khelaghor
sajano sab putuler ghor
aj vanga-chora sab
neiko r kono protikar
bolte chai, o mon,khule dao sab bandhon
vasiye diye ei vela
chole jai sab vule,ei parthib protikha.......

surjo-tara

• sara akash vora tara,
  tao ami aj o eka,
  tumi jante chao,ami kano eka?
  achi apekhyay,jani thik pabo dekha!
  sei surjo sei hobe amar dhrubo tara.
  jar sporshe pabo jibon dorshoner dekha.
  
  ekta khin prochesta matro amar,
  jani jabena tao britha,
  Jodi chhunye jay tomae,aamar se byatha.
  majh somudreo,thake je pipasa.
  sei bodhoy valobasa,
  jar nam roy galo ajana.

ways of life

Strange are the ways of life
it has its own whims to try
doesnt let you have your way
but still woudnt let you get away!
whatever it has to offer,
may not always be nice,
but then you dont have much choice!
it takes you by surprise
throwing open the skies
and then drags you down the crevice
leaving you with unexplained agonies!
and none any wise
showing at your face your vice.
the more you try
the greater is the strain
against its wishesthe lesser you retain
its better to just move along
the train of life
letting it beget
youthe best bargain!

MON

Chere diyechi ami sur
Khule diyechi ami taal
mele diyechi aj ami anchol
Vule gechi sab montrer jaal.....
Akasher thikanaye likhechi chithi,
uriye diyechi.na naam,na paati!
tumi sudhale ,jodi tarena chinte pari?
Shono tobe boli tomake,
pran e jodi tar baje,
Amar moner dhwoni,
parbena se erate,
jotoi na dik bidhi,haatchaani.
Mon jokhon mon ke daake,keu ki pare,take vule thakte?

BELA HOLO SESH.

Din katlo,bela goralo,
Dupur seshe,sondhya namlo ese,
Pakhi dana mele,ure elo nirey.
Songhorso holo sesh,ei diner moto,
surjo abar lal holochokher pata ek korte,
mayer kole chele firlo .
Hanta-cholar poth
Jon o sunyo holo
Tao,amar r bari fera holona to!
Poth hoy sesh,
Jatri tao thamena,
khunje more,
Ek chilte akash r megh!
Ei morubhumir balite,
Sudhui cactuser bhir,
Valobasar modhute,
vejate aseni to megh.

RATRI JANE!

Ratri jane,aj ami eka,
se jane ami korechi obohela.
Ratri jane aj amar chokhe andhar,
se jane aj r neiko kono bahar.
Ratri jane ami aj shranto,
se jane kano ami klanto!
Ratri jane,chene ei nirobota.
Sei je guneche amar byetha!
Ratri jane ami daki kare,
se jane,ami je cheyechi sudhui tare.
Ratri jane,se aj sudhui smriti,
se jane ami michei jol feli!
Ratri jane aj ami niruddesh,
se jane aj amar nirobota sesh!
Ratri jane aj sob nishesh,
vor holei r thakbena to kono biddesh.